Have you ever been put in a position where you have absolutely no idea what to do? I have and let me just say there’s always a choice. Lately I haven’t been feeling like my normal self. I’ve been feeling as if everything is a test. A test of wits, grace, charm and especially loyalty. They always say that the choices we make today will affect our future, but what if you don’t know what you want your future to be?
It all began New Years Eve when I was pulled in so many directions that I almost lost it. I had plans with my father and some other family over in Washington Heights, but I also had other things to do and people to see and I was trying to be everywhere at once so that I wouldn’t disappoint anyone. That’s the thing about me, I hate disappointing anyone who is close to me. I just want everyone to be happy. So later on that night I decided that some people were just going to have to deal with my absence and I proceeded to get beaucoup twisted. On my pearls I still can’t remember all of that night. Oh well. I’ve built a life in NYC that is based on nightlife and the fabulousness that comes with it, and I’m very grateful to be apart of it, I’m just not sure if I want it to be my whole life, you know? The politics behind it, the people, the look, the attitudes can all be a bit much. I’m just saying.